Bad Night
It's 13.40 and i haven't slept since i got up yesterday, i feel distinctly zombie like. Last night was tough,i felt depressed and lonely, it's at night my thoughts get nasty, turning self harm into a viable choice, i didn't and never will again hurt myself.
Things didn't get any better when my laptop went into meltdown, and is pretty much dead until the restore discs arrive. So i was left with music and my thoughts, was a long night i can tell you.
I've managed to assemble my old dell machine which will do for now.
It's when my sleep pattern slips that my mood starts to play up, but i see my cpn on Friday so hopefully arrange some sedation if need be.
Today i'm gonna be easy on myself, go a walk if i feel up to it but no big deal if not.
Things didn't get any better when my laptop went into meltdown, and is pretty much dead until the restore discs arrive. So i was left with music and my thoughts, was a long night i can tell you.
I've managed to assemble my old dell machine which will do for now.
It's when my sleep pattern slips that my mood starts to play up, but i see my cpn on Friday so hopefully arrange some sedation if need be.
Today i'm gonna be easy on myself, go a walk if i feel up to it but no big deal if not.
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